So where's the snow?

Muddling through life from Austria to Wales; God, life and a small black dog

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It’s a hard life


As you can see, my hyper-active puppy does occasionally chill out! The weather is fantastic at last, and now Dave’s working at the Burg, and when I need the car, I take her with me and we go on a new walk somewhere. A lot of the hay is waiting to be cut. and is soo tall that when she took off on a run the other day, she disappeared completely, all I could see was a bit of waving grass,heavens knows how she found her way back!  Daily dunking is now a habit, and I’m really feeling fitter with all this walking and being over a really nasty virus.


Puppy school, we’re sort of getting there, but she won’t do this ‘Platz’ business, which I admit would be really handy of she did it,eg when I have to stop and fill the little green sack! I think its all due to when the bloke yanked her down and she yelped, there must be a way around it, But saying that, she’s really good on the sit.


We’ve had to cut down on the treats, I’d said to Dave, she’s getting fat, her waistline isn’t so pronounced – he said we should feed her more so she doesn’t want to go walking at all(!) . Then at the school, the bloke said, oh, she’s well nourished, a bit of puppy fat is ok at her age………oops!


Apart from this, my life is so blessed, I give God daily praise for this wonderful place I’m in, he’s changed this life around from the pit we were in early this year.I love living here again. And if change is to come, so be it, I’m trying to live in the each moment and enjoy it.IMG_1527


Is your phone on?

My thanks to James Goll for this!

This share really struck home to me. I’ve been whingeing and whining about our future here and why doesn’t he answer our long term prayers!  Of course, Jesus is the word, and the word of God is in the Bible and the word is spirit.

So I decided to take another tack. Rather than sitting at the desk with a notebook or anxiously praying for a revelation, I was going to take the Gospels and read them, and keep reading. Letting the Word and Spirit sink into me, not questioning, not analyzing, almost reading it like a novel. Let it pour into me. And so I have been doing. I have seen things and the Holy Spirit has shown me things which I have had to make note of, but the biggest effect is just the word filling the part of my brain that reads leading it into my spirit.

Any changes or answers yet? No but a re-kindling of a closeness, something coming alive in me again. Doesn’t mean that I’m still not frustrated and angry and a bit desperate about our long term future here, but underlying is the deeper calm.  I’ve to stop clutching at straws, trying to imagine how God will resolve this, I’ve had so many false hopes here and I will not accept them any more. I cannot see how the situation will be resolved, but I’m stopping trying to manipulate.  Just let him fulfill the already answered prayer, and with the authority of the Risen Christ within me, I command change! Watch this space!

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God TV – moral failure


We were really surprised when we heard that Rory Alec had stepped down as CEO. Dave and I have our disagreements with some of God TVs fundraising, not trusting some of the people they trust and haven’t given so much lately. In fact their last appeal had a huge shortfall- we didn’t like the idea of buying bricks and putting a Bible under the altar – that’s daft and non biblical.  But this explains why there was a blockage. God expects a lot more from his people in key roles, and such sin would block things spiritually.

HOWEVER!  Rory is just a man and maybe they had all forgotten this and were so super spiritual that they thought themselves immune from attack. So what now? Forgiveness, repentance and Rory needs to at some stage, when he has sorted himself with God and his wife, to be brought back into the fold. What a chance to show the love of God and how repentance and forgiveness works. Or perhaps  Rory doesn’t want to give it up, and she doesn’t want him back. Human, weak and fallible,  God uses the weak of the world. What a chance for great things to come from this.

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I don’t think I can go on like this any more……


We recently had a visit from our son and his lovely wife. We hadn’t seen them since the wedding, 16 months ago, although we had exchanged infrequent emails, texts and face time on the phones. But not enough.

We had a time that was intense, such fun, chatty, learnt stuff about each other. Caught up.We even discussed what our future is here and how all we have in the UK is the kids. When they left, I decided that this time, I will let the emotion out, but I was in such pain at the Airport, I had to keep a hold on that in front of them.

I know it’s a reflection of how we are finding work and life here difficult. How would it be if they had moved away?

The next day Dave and I were both tired and ratty, and the following day I started the morning miseries, mild panic attacks, fear, light palpitations. Just like when our daughter left us in June.So it wasn’t a hormonal thing, it was my head and grief stepping in. This morning I cried. I prayed in tongues, letting it all out, and I was healed.  I am calm. But I can’t go on like this. It doesn’t change the situation. I don’t want to step on their toes or be the intrusive mother, but 16 months is too long. My family is my life. Sacrifice apart, God, you brought me here. I am a Mother, I will see my kids. If you want me to stay here, you have to trump up more money so I can go to see them more often. If not, next year, I’m leaving Austria. And going home. To where I can see them maybe every couple of months, or even more.

Have I talked to Dave about this – no. and I know that’s not good. I will not be putting this through Facebook either. But he doesn’t want to leave here. And it would be a great wrench to go to. We have quickly slipped back into our calmness and doing stuff, pottering about, filling our days and in six weeks I will be teaching again, having a shift on Meals on Wheels focuses our day.  What is the solution? Dave has been given a verse, about what is sown in sadness will be repaid in joy-he sees this as a us getting loads of money in the autumn, I see it as my situation, but I wasn’t given the verse.

I’m hanging on for Christmas, when we all get together in England. It is my focus.

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A Sunday stroll


Having delivered our vote at the local pub(!), Dave and I decided on a lunch at the Diktler Hut in Weisspriach, our favourite hostelery. There was still a little ice through the woods,  but the day was glorious, warm with clear skies. We indulged in sausage and saurkraut and shared a Kasierschmarn, which got extra points for coming with Apfel Muss, not with bottled cherries! Then out little view was changed with the arrival of two sweaty little Icelandic horses and their riders, who parked them and came over for lunch.

Dave  and Edith have said the me several times that I ought to go back to working with horses and I have tried to explain to them why I wont.Working for Lois burnt me out, leading rides out was making me more and more stressed. Working with Edith with the therapy horses didn’t gel either. So I had to get another job. A job that could support us, that gave me regular hours where I had at least some weekends off to enjoy my life here. I have gone back to do little bits of work but that has been really unsettling, a  form of torture.  I’m a single  minded person, and it has to be all or nothing. So I have to walk away. Some of it was Dave considered it an obsession, to me it was just how horses are.  I also felt that God had said it was time to move on.  So I haven’t ridden for over two years, and would need time to get back into it.  But is God changingmy heart in view of my  lack of work? I really am not interested in horses at the moment but have said I will respond if he sends a job my way.


So was this an improved view or not? Funny I just noticed a theme in the book blog too……

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Luke 5, verses 1 – 11


Sometimes a reading jumps out at you and the Spirit suddenly gives you an insight into a previously unremarkable passage.  He’s trying to tell us something as God‘s word is spirit. ( John 6,6)  This is one I received lately and I think it speaks to us about re-commitment. I think that God has given me the go-ahead to write a series of blogs about Bible passages that have really spoken to me, so there will now be a regular occurance!

At the time I was wondering why this was sticking so much in my mind, nothing was jumping out of the page at me but  I did re –read that this was also a re-commitment, after the original call from Jesus, the fishermen had gone back to their trade.  (Mat 4, 18 -22, Mark 1, 16 -20 ).

Then this Sunday, Mr Wishywashy (Joel Osteen) preached on the same verses.  He said that when our faith is weak and we are doubting, then God’s faith steps in, and so the fishermen were blessed with the huge catch. A set time of blessing he said. Of course I felt he’d oversimplified.  If you read it, Peter’s unbelief is countered with a little belief, ie we haven’t caught anything  but if you say so, I will. This little step produced what was for the fishermen untold riches.

Peter confessed his sin and recommitted and WALKED AWAY from the riches.  That’s a hard one.  He was so impressed he could but not believe and his belief surpassed the proof in his eyes, wow!  Still I like the idea of the blessing that is to come, and re-commitment for us to living and working here but  I don’t know if I could walk from riches away unless Jesus told me to personally!

From the New International version, Luke 5

    1 One day as Jesus was standing by the Lake of Gennesaret, the people were crowding around him and listening to the word of God. 2 He saw at the water’s edge two boats, left there by the fishermen, who were washing their nets. 3 He got into one of the boats, the one belonging to Simon, and asked him to put out a little from shore. Then he sat down and taught the people from the boat.

   4 When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch.”

   5 Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.”

   6 When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break.7 So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them, and they came and filled both boats so full that they began to sink.

   8 When Simon Peter saw this, he fell at Jesus’ knees and said, “Go away from me, Lord; I am a sinful man!” 9 For he and all his companions were astonished at the catch of fish they had taken, 10and so were James and John, the sons of Zebedee, Simon’s partners.

   Then Jesus said to Simon, “Don’t be afraid; from now on you will fish for people.” 11 So they pulled their boats up on shore, left everything and followed him.