So after all I had been listening to, I was experiencing a renewal. My doubts about the path we’re on here were gone and I now needed to take more steps and explore the way.A teaching of Andrew’s talked about using your imagination to see God’s will and plan, and that positive imagination is HOPE. Together with my renewal of using toungues I decided to battle with that wall.
I had been reading about Jesus being the shepherd (John 10 v 1-7) and how he goes into the sheep pen collects his sheep and then leads them out into pasture, funny I’ve only just understood this picture of practical sheep keeping! So I sat and saw this wall, and could see a brick wall with some trees behind. So I began tearing down bricks, and some had names on them, self, arrogance, family, Erna, horses, disbelief, self pity (I’m good at that!) and I could see them lying on the ground. The wall grew neither smaller or shorter although now 30 brick were on the ground. So I decided to give it another go and went back to reading.
Matthew 7, v 13-14, and John 10, v 7
I don’t need to destroy the wall, I have a gate, Jesus, I just need to find the small and narrow gate in all that undergrowth!