This photo, was so moving that I asked Cee Neuner if I could use it. It’s of a 90-year-old lady who hadn’t been on a horse for 50 years, so it’s really a happy shot but it makes me feel sad.
So many themes in my life, I’m questioning, wondering about, feeling sad, angry and confused.
My decision to walk away from horses as there was no future here with them for me-is that time really over? If I rode again, would I be a bundle of nerves and have to start all over again?
My own childhood was filled with seeing the effects of ageing on my Grandmother, her stroke and dementia, the constant battle between her and my mother. Having to decide to hate one and love the other. Seeing my own mother die from what for her was the most humiliating form of cancer. Consequently being unable to handle friends growing old and declining, causing me either to act in anger or walk away. Being unable to handle my own changes as I get older too.
This picture touched something deep inside, the message of being never being too old. I will have to look at it for a long time until I get what it’s saying to me.
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February 22, 2015 at 11:39 pm
Keep looking at this photo. You deserve happiness and freedom. It’s yours to grab. This lady was fabulous and knew her own mind. It is nice to see it at any age. Go find your own peace of mind.
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February 23, 2015 at 2:25 pm
Yup! I’m going to put it as a screen saver I’m sure it’s going to bring more to mind!
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February 23, 2015 at 5:51 pm
Let me know if you need a larger version of this photo…in case you want to print it out or something. I’ll gladly send you bigger one.
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February 22, 2015 at 11:40 pm
Reblogged this on Cee's Photography and commented:
The blogger at So Where’s the Snow asked me a week or so ago if she could use my photo of Geraldine’s hand for a post. I of said she could. I had no idea that this photo touched her so deeply. I hope you go over and read her post.
Qi (energy) hugs
Cee
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February 23, 2015 at 2:24 pm
Thanks so much Cee, I’ve had so many lovely comments through you, and found some more like minded blogs to follow-what a blessing!
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February 23, 2015 at 5:52 pm
I’m glad you are finding new people to blog with. Thanks again for liking and wanting to use my photo. You are a special person and you are going to ride again. 🙂
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February 23, 2015 at 7:24 pm
Thanks Cee! I getting increasingly resolved to get back in the saddle!
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February 23, 2015 at 12:40 am
What a beautiful written post – it touched my deep inside.
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February 23, 2015 at 2:23 pm
Thank you so much!
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February 23, 2015 at 1:03 am
Anna, I think this picture has spoken to you already. XO
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February 23, 2015 at 2:23 pm
Yup!! And I will act on it, I’ve said it one comment and I’ll say it again, I’m going to ride again this spring!
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February 23, 2015 at 3:01 am
Life isn’t easy. Still we need to be thankful for what we have and how we are
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February 23, 2015 at 2:21 pm
You’re so right. I have so many joys in this life in Austria, I think my trouble is this year I have a really bad case of cabin fever and homesickness! My daughter arrives in two weeks for a visit- must focus on that!
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February 23, 2015 at 8:20 pm
That’s good. Focus on positive things
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February 24, 2015 at 1:43 pm
Yup, I’m off to teach an English class tonight, should be fun!
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February 23, 2015 at 3:01 am
You are never too old!
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February 23, 2015 at 2:20 pm
Yup, I thought I was too old when I restarted riding at 40, I’M going to bite the bullet this spring and ride again!
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February 23, 2015 at 3:04 pm
Good for you! I thought I was too old to start writing again, and I’ll be 60 in May. But look at me now. You can’t shut me up! 😀
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February 24, 2015 at 1:46 pm
Thanks! I’ve had so much encouragement this week, what a blessing!
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February 24, 2015 at 4:21 pm
You’re quite welcome!
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February 23, 2015 at 6:05 pm
Hi Anna,
I fully understand the thing between your grandmother and your mother.
My grandmother saw my mother still as her child and didn’t accept anything what she was saying or suggesting to her. My mother just wanted to help. If I as her grandchild said the same, it was o.k. for my grandmother 😉 and she did what I told her to do 🙂 I think it is the thing between mother and daughter.
Today I am 54 and my mom sometimes still treats me like a little kid, but I am only laughing at it 😀 I don’t take it serious, but I know she only wants the best for me.
Cheers Angela
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February 23, 2015 at 7:21 pm
Thanks Angela, what you say sounds so familiar! Our family was complicated, my Mum was in Canada, decided she was leaving my Dad(that’s another long story)and Gran sold a ring to pay for the passage home, she never let my mother forget it for the next 30 years! I have two older brothers and when I was maybe 4 I realized it was be in with my brothers and mum and hate Gran or like Gran and be excluded! The two women fought tooth and nail- and when I was old enough to try and intervene and did, they both separately thanked me for taking their side-aaaarrgghh! I left home shortly after! I can look back with humour now but at the time it was awful!!! Thanks again, it’s great to know someone else has been the daughter in the middle!
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February 23, 2015 at 8:56 pm
Ce’s photo is so beautiful. My granny went on a horse for the first time when she was 85-years-old. I wasn’t there to record it, and no-one thought to take a photo. 😦
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February 24, 2015 at 1:41 pm
Funny how things change, it seems we cant move these days we cannot move without someone doing a selfie or a shot of food!
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February 24, 2015 at 1:57 pm
Yes, you’re so right. 🙂
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March 2, 2015 at 6:39 pm
Reblogged this on Meet The Artists – Art Box and commented:
Beautiful photo and blog!
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March 2, 2015 at 7:18 pm
Wow, thanks for the reblog, my first and the follow!
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