Dave and I are a bit of a crossroads at the moment about our lives here, and are praying with boldness and perseverance that God will bless our lives and release us from unemployment by some means that will enable us to work full time for him, in opening the day centre in Tamsweg, run the new house group help at Charities and so on.
This is one of the Bible sections that spoke to me, through Jacob‘s persistence with God. I’m not going to go into the is this or is it not Jesus discussion here, but I do think it is. The Angels were already there, so this was someone else. Jakob hasn’t exactly been a good specimen of manhood up till this point (you will have to read this yourself), but in his determination to be blessed he takes on and wrestles this man the entire night, and receives his blessing. I was praying for several weeks about this and through till God started pointing things out to me. Yes, we can be persistent, and pursue our blessing till we make God bless us. MAKE GOD BLESS US? Hang on, what happened to the unconditional love and providence for us?
Then I realised that this is still under the Old testament, even before the law was created. When people’s sin was not ‘inputed’ or laid on them. And while Jakob received his blessing, he was damaged in the process. I didn’t want that , what was I missing? Jesus and salvation is what I was missing. In his death, God’s forgiveness, our salvation, we can approach the throne with confidence, without fear of damage, we need to wrestle no more. Grace is what I was missing.
22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. 23 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. 24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. 25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 26 Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
29 Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.”
But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.
31 The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel,[h] and he was limping because of his hip. 32Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob’s hip was touched near the tendon.