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Car Accident -Part Two


It took a while for the self loathing to disappear. It took a while to stop reflecting on the absoluteness of the action, like the finality of death, you cannot change it.

We had the loan car and a family visit which was really good to take me out of myself as other horrible things just kept on happening. On Meals On Wheels, I got shouted at by the cook in the Hotel over a missed delivery, which was not my fault, I’d even rang to ask him why I had a box left the previuos day.  Then blow me down of I didn’t have a gift from the Kindergarten, and the customers themselves are so lovely,  I can’t jack it in. Then I fell flat on my face while out walking and that hasnt happened for a while! Thought I’d sprained my wrist but its ok.

Was GOd punishing me for something? I don’t believe in that sort of God, it’s just me own stupidity and things just happening. I’m certainly not letting myself drift off into lala land and not concentrate any more -middle age stuff!

The worse thing is not being able to bung the dog in the car and go for a walk, and when we had no car, how difficult  it is just to go shopping! It’s a privilege to have but taken for granted to have a car.

And the guy at the garage has talked us into buying a new car. The insurance is fannying about, so we’re doing it on auto leasing which is cheaper than the bank, it’s the older style panda, but new this year,  last of the line I suppose, and its RED!!!  Love red cars!


Car Accident-Part One

IMG_1760I couldn’t even write about this in my Diary but am begining to need to write as part of my coming to terms, so I’m doing it on here. I’ve bashed our little Fiat Panda and I really am a bit in pieces. I seek to tell the truth as I perceive it, to get it out of my system!

Dave and I were driving home after a busy day and came to the bend near Ramingstein, which has cliffs on the side. I saw that there was a queue following a tractor with a trailer so I had to brake, although I wasn’t going that fast. I braked. And as I put my foot back on the accelerator, it slipped off and I jammed the brakes on. We’d nearly stopped and I was just starting to pull away when someone went into the back of us. I sat the there. I froze. I couldn’t move or function. Dave went to talk to the people behind and there was a lot of angry tooting too. I felt to COMPLETELY stupid, that I should never drive again and my concentration is so bad these days,if I’d been concentrating properly I’d have taken my foot off the pedal and not stopped.  I’m a danger to all. I felt sick.

Eventually the Police arrived and I went and stood like a zombie by the other car. To make it worse, there was a disabled bloke in it,  he was in a wheel chair at the side of the road. They took the other woman’s details first and then ordered her car to be towed a way. When I caught her eye all I could say was I’m so sorry. A huge car, it had come off far worse. Then I gave my account and they looked at Panda, and told us we could drive it home. I asked the Policeman if I would be called to court. He said that the law says you should be able to stop if someone breaks suddenly regardless of cause.

We got home and spent the evening still like zombies,  me still beating myself up, but Dave being so lovely and comforting me. The dog had been saved by the bars we’d just installed and thought we were being silly.

I woke in the night in a cold sweat of the awfulness of what I’ve done.  The next morning, the Insurance guy came and we filled in forms. He reckons that the car should be mended. He went off to put all this on his system and I waited for a call. This guy had to hand over to the local office, so he said ring at about 3.30 when I’ve sent it all over. We needed the Police report and the accident number.

I eventually spoke to the lady who spoke so quickly but I got the gist that she needed a number so the garage could contact me. No one rang. I began to be angry Anna. Are they taking sides? It’s still my fault for braking.

So this morning, I rang the garage who said no one from the office had rung, so I had to ring her and ask her to call him. The firm is just moving office, I hope this doesn’t lead to a string of cockups. We’ll drive Panda to the garage this afternoon and get an assessment.

Dave bless him has cycled to work. But we need to shop. We need to take stuff to a holiday house for a changeover this weekend, and help Edith with her hay. We need dog food! Dave’s brother is coming next week for a holiday and we have to do an airport run, and I had arranged for someone to mind the dog, but could I handle the run alone? I’ve already covered my meals on wheels duty. We’re not covered for a rental car on the insurance, so we will have to pay. But I’m coming together. But its the first time in my life, I’ve actually worried about what people in the village are saying about me.

I wont put this on FB because I’m still too embarrassed. And my neck’s aching. It could mean claiming extra money for whiplash but I won’t, I had it mildly a few years ago after Edith’s accident, I’m not wearing a collar. So am I writing this so I get sympathy from you dear reader? Maybe!


Freak Dog!

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My brother in law, Steve took this shot of Swingle, she was shaking at the time, but doesn’t she look odd? Legs like a giraffe and her tails been cut off. The wonders of photography!

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Swingle has a friend to stay!


Sina, who I have looked after in the past came to spend a few days with us while her owner was away. Sina and Swingle have met lots because we do gardening work at her house. And they do play together. So I was blissfully imagining four days without having to dog walk!

And on the whole, they did play, but physcologically, they needed a turn around the block, so we did. Swingle was great as a couple, but as Sina can’t be let off at times it was a bit boring for Sina having the village idiot hanging from her lead!

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They played on the whole, with Swingle constantly nagging Sina until she got cross and snapped. Soemone needed to learn manners and when to stop. I think they enjoyed the time sharing the barking at everything they could think of.

It was all coming back to me about multiple dog ownership, why they always had to play if possible under my feet, and be under my feet too, the double panic if I went out, having to feed separately, and sneakily stroking one while the other wasn’t looking…………

Swingle was jealous, if I tried to stroke Sina she barked, if Sina tried to come in the bedroom she yelled and screamed-such jealousy! Eventually, Sina’s owner came to collect, and Sina shot into the car with a ‘TAKE ME OUTTA HERE’ look on her face, and Swingle actually collapsed in a heap and slept soundly for twelve hours and the next day, it was quite nice to have her undivided attention again!


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My lane, June 29th, Bugs everywhere!


There’s a sense of ripening rather than growing. A move towards maturity.

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Bugs and bugs making more bugs!

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Early Morning along the Murradweg


In a desire to escape the heat, Swingle and I went for a trot along the bike path at about 7.30 am this morning.


It was wonderfully cool in the shade.


It’s not mist on the flowers, but grass seed heads.


She snacked her way along as there seemed to be a plague of dead and decapitated shrews on the way! She also picked up the scent of a hare, but fortunately didn’t see it although I did.


When we hit the warm patches it was pleasantly warm, We finished up the walk with Swingle having a paddle in the Mur, then it was home for breakfast.


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Something odd in the woods


Without my bridge, I’m having to look for new walks to keep us from being bored and this morning I went up the forest road behind the brick factory. Just what all this is, I have no idea, kids playing, or misplaced Catholic sentiments because someone found a dumped sledge and a broken statue? They’ll be saying a Saint or Holy man was there next……………


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